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SO Cheshire was fab and Im very proud of myself for not freaking out/ screaming/vomiting everywhere... however feeling a bit down today. Feet very sore again, so in pain and exhausted and I didnt get the job I really wanted. The thing that annoys me the most is that I knew I wouldnt get it, but I know I am more than capable of doing it. It pisses me off as that's usually the case. Can't wait to leave Bath now... I was just hoping to have a job to go to. Oh well... nothing ever runs smoothly. I'm feeling very grouchy :(

Here We Go

So at 4pm Iain and I depart for Cheshire. I have to admit that im rather excited.... I can find it amongst all the fear ;)

The one thing im really looking forward to out of everything though, is that im spending time with Iain, which I know sounds nuts, because I live with him.... but I love our time together and when Im at working, I miss that. I know at this rate he'll probably be looking after me, if the train is making me feel unwell... poor man, but he makes me feel safe and in turn that's given me some much needed confidence.

I just hope Im ok......

Week of Scaryness

Ok, so this week I have lots to do - go to Cheshire (long train journey...eurgh) have an interview, maybe view some flats and go to Iain's cousin's wedding. All of these things terrify me. I accept that Im a wimp.... for some reason I get way to nervous and anxious about things and I have no idea why. I really wish I didnt because last night I got butterflies in my tummy.. and they will be with me until I am back in Bath next Monday. This means that I am constantly nervous and constantly on edge :( Poor Iain, I dont know how he puts up with my weird ways, but thank god he does.

Off To Liverpool!!

Finally - we are moving..... I actually cannot wait. It feels asthough, even though I love living with Iain more than anything, that our life has been put on hold in Bath and that we both deserve more than we have. Don't get me wrong.. in the grand scheme of things, it's not asthough we suffer terribily and that we have it worse than everyone.. definately not. But..... we are both unhappy in Bath, and have no money..and I mean NO money and no social life. It will be good to move and have new experiences and meet new people. I really hope that my photography takes off and that Iain gets all the chances that he deserves in terms of his music. He is beyond talented and sees things in such a unique way musically that he deserves way more than he has.

I'm a happy girl.... just hope I can mentally survive the next month.... eek.